Little did I know...
Some time in December last...at the office...before Christmas...
Momoi : Bah siapa cuti time buka school...
Aines : I mau cuti...
Momoi : Ko Ton?
Self : Inda la.....
Momoi : Kenapa pula ko inda cuti?
Self : Anak2 I kan continue ja...Aines sebab Ally baru masuk Darjah 1...
Some time in December last...at home...after Christmas...
Hubby : So, how? Ita said better if Kakak school di Tuaran...
Self : (silent)
Hubby : Bagus juga kalau si Adek pun di sana...Alli stay with us la...
Self : (long silent)
Hubby : Ada juga betul cakap si Ita tu...PMR ni ok lagi...SPM ni si Kakak perlu tempat yang tenang...
Self : (still silent)
Hubby : Jadi apa pikiran?
I pondered heavily on the recent incident that had happened before...
...that is still happening...
...that is showing no sign of receding...
I closed my eyes...
Deep in thought...
Playing and rewinding my memory...
And in the shortest span of record time...
I reached a lightning decision...
A do or die decision...
A decision that I believed I should have taken a long time ago...
Just because I was a coward...
Just because I was afraid...
Then I dropped the bombshell...
Self : Kalau kita semua pindah pun ok juga bah...
Hubby : Hah...betul bah ni...(was hubby in a BIG surprise, big caused I rejected this idea before and I was never short of excuses then...)
Self : Betul bah...
Hubby : Betul?
Self : Iya...
Hubby : Betul bah ni...
Self : Iya bah...kalau dipikir-pikir apa juga yang I mau ni actually...apa yang mau dikejar sebenarnya...kesian budak2 tu...lama suda dorang suffering...
Hubby : Bole suda call Mummy kasi tau dorang this news...
Self : (nodding)
So, in a flash we left our present life behind just as 2008 is closing its chapter.
We prepared ourselves for the upheavel and ruckus that we knew is coming as 2009 is closing in.
When we broke the news to the children, we noticed that they received it with mixed feelings.
Happy caused they loved living at kampung, a friend once told me..."heran juga anak2 kau ni...orang mati2 mau pigi bandar...dorang pula suka di kampung"...
Sad because they are leaving their friends behind...
After all the hiccups of moving house...
After all the glitches of switching school...
After all the seemingly endless lectures and comfort talks...
We ride through the stormy blend of emotional turmoil...
We drive right ahead through the foggy journey...
We received come what may with open arms...
We received come what may with open hearts...
Caused we knew...
There is nothing more sweeter in this world...
Nothing beats the feeling...
...of being at home sweet home...
Some time in December last...at the office...before Christmas...
Momoi : Bah siapa cuti time buka school...
Aines : I mau cuti...
Momoi : Ko Ton?
Self : Inda la.....
Momoi : Kenapa pula ko inda cuti?
Self : Anak2 I kan continue ja...Aines sebab Ally baru masuk Darjah 1...
Some time in December last...at home...after Christmas...
Hubby : So, how? Ita said better if Kakak school di Tuaran...
Self : (silent)
Hubby : Bagus juga kalau si Adek pun di sana...Alli stay with us la...
Self : (long silent)
Hubby : Ada juga betul cakap si Ita tu...PMR ni ok lagi...SPM ni si Kakak perlu tempat yang tenang...
Self : (still silent)
Hubby : Jadi apa pikiran?
I pondered heavily on the recent incident that had happened before...
...that is still happening...
...that is showing no sign of receding...
I closed my eyes...
Deep in thought...
Playing and rewinding my memory...
And in the shortest span of record time...
I reached a lightning decision...
A do or die decision...
A decision that I believed I should have taken a long time ago...
Just because I was a coward...
Just because I was afraid...
Then I dropped the bombshell...
Self : Kalau kita semua pindah pun ok juga bah...
Hubby : Hah...betul bah ni...(was hubby in a BIG surprise, big caused I rejected this idea before and I was never short of excuses then...)
Self : Betul bah...
Hubby : Betul?
Self : Iya...
Hubby : Betul bah ni...
Self : Iya bah...kalau dipikir-pikir apa juga yang I mau ni actually...apa yang mau dikejar sebenarnya...kesian budak2 tu...lama suda dorang suffering...
Hubby : Bole suda call Mummy kasi tau dorang this news...
Self : (nodding)
So, in a flash we left our present life behind just as 2008 is closing its chapter.
We prepared ourselves for the upheavel and ruckus that we knew is coming as 2009 is closing in.
When we broke the news to the children, we noticed that they received it with mixed feelings.
Happy caused they loved living at kampung, a friend once told me..."heran juga anak2 kau ni...orang mati2 mau pigi bandar...dorang pula suka di kampung"...
Sad because they are leaving their friends behind...
After all the hiccups of moving house...
After all the glitches of switching school...
After all the seemingly endless lectures and comfort talks...
We ride through the stormy blend of emotional turmoil...
We drive right ahead through the foggy journey...
We received come what may with open arms...
We received come what may with open hearts...
Caused we knew...
There is nothing more sweeter in this world...
Nothing beats the feeling...
...of being at home sweet home...
...hubby and Alli burning the rubbish...di KK inda pernah dapat buat gini...
...under hubby's supervision, Alli could not seem to go far away from the fire...
...Kakak and Adek joined in...
...kakak and Alli played their old bikes...
...Tiger, the puppy that Uncle Dohoi gave to mummy likes to follow the children biking...
...Tiger seemed to listen to what hubby said...
...hubby mowing the lawn...
...still mowing biar sudah gelap...semangat...
My, my, my...
How very little did I know...
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