All our love...

It was slightly after 11.00 pm last night...

The cough syrup from his last visit did not do the trick...
Instead of subsiding, Alli's cough was getting non-stop...
He pestered me to bring him to see the doctor...an abnormality on his part...a signal that he could not longer withstand the pain...
Upon reaching the clinic, I then decided to also see the doctor...seemed to experience breathing discomfort for the last few days...short interval of breathing time...

Dr : Kamu pernah asma kan?
Self : Kalau time batuk kuat or selesma...
Dr : Sekarang kamu asma ni...I give you this ubat...kuat sikit...jantung akan laju sikit bergerak...jangan takut...
Self : Ok...
Alli : Can you make it quick please...(he was already sitting down next to the Dr's table)
Dr : Why you want to make it quick (still scribbling down my medication)...
Alli : I'm freezing (the aircond was behind him)...
Dr : Ok la...I'll be quick...

I could not help looking at my watch...
It was past 11.45pm...
Waiting for the medication was like waiting forever...
It was getting on my nerve...
I need to go home fast...
I need to get the children ready...
Ready before the clock strikes 12.00am...
Ready for this...

...we gathered together and sang...
...happy birthday to you...
...happy birthday to you...
...happy birthday to you daddy...
...happy birthday to you...
...thank you Skype...

It was fun...
Fun because we were shoving each other so that hubby could see us...
Fun when I recalled Adek saying..."jaga ah kalau siapa suara sumbang"...
Fun when we sang out loud to hubby...

But it was also sad at the same time...
Sad because we could not give hubby the customary hugs and kisses...
Sad because he is all alone there...
Sad because we do not have him here with us...

Babe...
...all my love...
...all our love...
...my knight in shining amour...
...our pillar of strength...
Luv u...

p.s. Nikon D300 or the rumoured Nikon D400 c/w video...hmmmm... ;)