Still...

Many, many nights ago...before Ramadhan...before Raya...

Hubby : You ada update blog...
Self : Ndada...
Hubby : Kenapa...
Self : Eh ndak tau la...banyak juga mau blog...tapi keadaan sekarang ni macam mau blog pasal my whining saja ni...ndak syok juga gitu...nanti la...

Then I recalled something what hubby said to me...the blog would help him, sort of updating him in the ongoings of our life in KK...the life that he was forcefully against his wish left behind...the life that does not involve him...

On Raya day...

Ron : Ndak memblog suda...
Self : Ha ha ha...
Ron : Buka...Tuesday's fire saja...
Self : Blues ba...blues ja all the time...


Aiyo...how la...

...the culprit...the source of my unhappy-bleak-despair-melancholic-gloomy infested life...

(Babe...do you still remember this photo...taken at Labuan when you wanted to apply for a job in KK...I got it in bigger size back then...now it sits in front of me...you were still in your early twenties...masih muda ganteng gitu...still...my one and only...)

I recalled a conversation I had with a parent at Alli's school...we are not really buddy-buddy...I think her name is Lina...I do not really know her...still don't...I only knew that she is one of the committee in the PIBG...she was kind enough to give me her son's old PE's text book last year...we did the compulsory chin-up acknowledgement when we passed each other in our cars...we did the compulsory smile or 'Hi' when we crossed path in the school's compound...we were in the canteen buying breakfast not long before Ramadan...

Lina : So, how are you?
Self : Hmmm...gini lah...still alive and kicking...
Lina : Wow! I like that...still alive and kicking...

Yup, yup, yup...
...definitely much alive....
...not kicking as hard as I want to tho'...
but...
still...