Forget...

Just now...

Self : Alli wake up...bangun sayang mummy...

The moment he woke up...

Alli : Mum don't forget Bahasa Arab...
Self : Ok...

Alli was very angry with me for forgetting his Bahasa Arab book last Friday.
Alli himself sorted out his books that day instead of me.
I did not re-check.

After bath...

Alli : Mum jangan lupa my Bahasa Arab...
Self : Suda...
Alli : Nanti ustaz tarik rambut kalau ndak bawa Bahasa Arab.
Self : (teramat terkedu) Ustaz tarik rambut where...
Alli : here (pulling his hair at the temple)...

In the car after dropping Adek at the Esso Station...

Self : Sakit ka ustaz tarik rambut you...
Alli : Bukan tarik rambut...cubit telinga...
Self : Aik, tadi you said tarik rambut, now cubit telinga...
Alli : Alli wrong mum, cubit telinga...sakit oh mum...sakit betul...macam mau putus telinga Alli...
Self : Ok...next time mesti extra careful...mesti check your books betul-betul...
Alli : Ok mum...
Self : (will korek about the tarik rambut time santai-santai)

How did I react this morning...mixed feelings...
I always tell the kids...follow all the rules at school and you will be alright...
I guess this sort of things happen all the time...
I guess no matter how careful we are, this do happen juga...

Suddenly I went down memory lane...
When I was in primary school, coincidently Kelas Agama...
The student besides me was talking to another student...
The Ustaz had his back to me...
All of a sudden he turned around and pinched me on the thigh...
He told me to stop talking...he taught I was the one talking...
It was a mighty hard pinch...
I could still remember that pinch until this day...
I could have sworn I could still feel that mighty pinch on my thigh...
I remembered like it was yesterday coz it was painful...
A childhood pain...
When I think about it...the humiliation is much more painful than the flesh pain..
That memory is embedded firmly in the brain..it wouldn't make itself scarce no matter what...
Will it do the same to Alli?
I recalled hubby telling me that hurtful things people say or do to us during our young days, we will tend to remember it sampai bila bila...

Before I left...
We did the customary...kiss, hug, kiss, hug some more, kiss some more...
I did out of the ordinary today...
I kissed his ear...